Open Book

i dont have a focus in life, at this point i have no idea what i want to do or how am i going to get there, kinda hard if i dont even know what you want to do.
the learning skills workshop let me know how much i dont study, i have no idea what my learning styles are, even what kind of environment i like to work in or under what conditions.
problems have always been on my horizon, but the horizon just got closer.

what are you thinking? i have trouble comprehending.
i need a guidebook, talk to me.

you notice there are times when you feel you have control of the world, then the time comes when you just see that control slipping out of your hands? until the time where you dont even control your own thoughts and actions.

i think i'm impulsive, and i do stupid things. but i like control. i like certainty. i like black and white.
abstract thinking sometimes just seems too abstract for me. am i making sense?

life is tiring.